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Ambiguity livesession 2020

by The Cake Is A Lie

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What’s left after all these years ? My beloved child. Since you left this house. That was never your home. Years gone by. I hate my inability. The promises I couldn’t hold. And most of your fear running into my arms – into my arms. And what has changed ? And what has changed. I swore to have integrity the day you left the womb. After your first cry. Love for you was all I felt. But yet we stay in different places. Craving for the same thing. That one day we’ll never say goodbye. Every goodbye we had. Was covered in silence. Soaked with unspoken love. Unable to look each others eyes. But I tried to play the role. That comes with being a family. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I wanted to love you. But every apology opens wounds I won’t allow to heal. I won’t allow to heal.
The distance changes nothing. I won’t forget your face. Time changes nothing. I miss you just as much as the day you left. Come home and rest for a while. I know you won’t. ’Cause you still haven’t found. What you are looking for. ’Cause I still haven’t found what I’m looking for. What we’re hoping for. I close my eyes while i’m breathing in. ’Cause I hope you understand. Every decision I made was out of love. My regrets are true. Your leaving changed nothing. I still love you as my child. Silence changed nothing. I still miss the sound of your voice. Whether you like it or not. Alone will be something. You’ll be quite a lot. Not because I want you to be. But you choose to stay. But I will still try to fix what you’re missing. Taking my own flesh. Just to find out that it won’t fit. I will use my time. Chasing you into your uncertainty and fear. Just to watch you flee when you see me. Anxious. Going deeper and deeper. But I wanna die trying. I wanna die trying. But I wanna die trying. Rather than live and lose you.
What did I expect to find ? Leaving you, chasing you. For every single tear. My heart wants me to cry. I pray that hate would justify. The storm growling in my soul. But every wave threatens my foundation. You are. The person I blame. And the one I turn for help. On my wildest trails. You are the one I ask for direction. But I doubt you have the answers. That’s how it is. The way I believe in. The truth I search. And find after being lost in myself. I will not go ashore. Finding rescue in the ruins. That once held our family together. I always knew what to do when you said yes. I counted my blessings. But I’m afraid of you saying no. I wanna give up hurting you. But I’m afraid of loosing the right hurting you. Forgiveness must be a wonderful thing. Taking the knife out of my back. Not using it against. The ones I love. That’s how it is. The way I believe in. Who is gonna see my scars ? Will you still feel me when it stops bleeding ?
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As long as I know you. I’ve been running away from you. I’m waiting for the wind to stop blowing. I’m longing for the sun. As Long as I am running. I’m waiting for the wind to stop. The waves to stop crashing. The rain to stop dripping in my eyes. I’m losing the focus on my way home. Come home. Come home. Come home and rest for a while. Come home and rest for a while. Come home and rest for a while. I rather built the known again. Than wandering searching for the unseen. Don’t talk about trust. I need you to strengthen myself. Not to destroy the building I call home. It gave me shelter as the water rose. Even after my breakdown. I searched rescue in the ruins. Surviving was my only aim. But what should I fight for ? The sickness unto death. My prayers may be selfish. But you say you love the sound of my voice. My ways appear confusing. But you still don’t leave my side. My thoughts are lustful. But you don’t condemn me. I still doubt you. Not as much as I did. But I can’t overcome my concerns. I pursue you. ’Cause I do not feel that I’ve found you. And yet you say you found me. Even if I don’t know if it’s worth searching me. I avoid you but more I just try to love you. A love that ties and hurts the same time. I wanna stay secure in my insecurity. What is peace ? Can I find it in the rising sea? Why you’re sitting next to me waiting for the storm to calm down ? I can’t receive the love in your open arms if my arms are crossed. I’ve been dirtier than you wanna know than I wanna be. Why are you still listening ? Telling me to open my arms und to be free. But still you are. Waiting for me. Not to finish my journey. But to be still and know who you are. A loving father. Outlasting my imperfection. Honoring my attempts. I wanna seek peace and so I wanna pursue you. Love is vulnerable. Love is trusting the other not to cut you.


empty rooms – playing LIVE in ambiguous times.


released October 11, 2020

Music & Lyrics by The Cake Is A Lie:
Julian Thüroff, Jonas Honke, Erick Jansen, David Honke, Jonas Hammerbacher
Audio: Maryroad Records (maryroadrecords.com/wp/)


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The Cake Is A Lie can be described as emotional melodic hardcore with the intention of sharing the passion for the music and people. It is more than a concert. It is a lifestyle of creating an environment for people to be themselves without any judgement. ... more

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